tugging at my ear, 2024

I often get anxious thinking about my trajectory in this world, and I wonder if I’m falling behind everyone else. In those moments of self-doubt, I try my best to remind myself that I have no control over how fast a plant grows nor can I dictate the direction it grows in. All I can do is water it and give it a path to find the sun for itself. I grow at the rate of which I grow, and the only thing I will ever have a say in is if I let it happen or not. 

This little lily seed inside me just needs an entry point into the world. May it find the sunlight through whatever channel it can. I will do what I must in order for it to feel the rays on its petals.